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Monday, December 8, 2008

i need chocolate, perhaps it'll work, for awhile..

for 2 days, i felt what was like to be temporary blind, well not totally. dumb me lost a contact lens while wearing it on the bed during the camp at pasir ris chalet. well, it got me thinking, what if im blind, which is quite possible, what's gona happen? who's gonna take care of me? who's hand can i hold on to? who can i trust? now. after being stump for awhile, i put on the other one. think i'll just pray that day won't come.

after a long talk with my shepherd on the first night (finally, i felt like a sheep), no i don't feel much better, but yes, at least i know im not alone.

frankly speaking, im quite dead the past few days. well games were fun. oh and the prank calls were ridiculously funny, think ryan called like a whole phonebook of ppl, pranking em using what "you're selected for HerWorld's top 10 models!" yadayadayada, hahaha. "if you think you don't have the cut, don't worry, we have photoshop!" omg. well but ppl do recognise that its him, cos who else? lol. anw, yea these little moments were fun, seeing ppl being thrown in the mud, laughing at em, well that's like almost everyone except me. at least i get to smile at a time like this, even if its just on the outside.

anw, white sands, seeing the bmt guys reminds me of then. well, youth, i think im gonna regret for the rest of my life, cos i'd screwed it all up. my mum asked me couple of times, don't you have any friends from school or what, why always stay at home. heh, wad can i say? i didn't say anything. 5 more months, and there goes -teen. well, at least i know for a year, i experienced joy, love and hope. perhaps that's all im gonna take away from this quarter, or maybe a third of my life(i've got a feeling im gonna die early, which is scary cos all my premonition comes true haha)

saw a daihatsu copen convertible in camp last week! damn cute haha. 67k. maybe i'll just get that if i can't earn much. lol.

booking in tmr morning! eh ok..

i still don't understand, it just won't stop pricking me..

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