Thursday, October 30, 2008
I MIss PLAYING MY PIANO! alright 2 more weeks! argh, sian. anw, had been blasting rach 3 in my earphones for quite some time now, Nikolai Lugansky, hmm never heard of him before, but his interpretation is amazing! yea, love the way he played rach 3. crap, im gonna try to finish at least the first movement when i get back. actually im planning to finish learning it, somehow, sucha a beautiful piece, there's more satisfaction playing it with your own hands than just listening and be envious. haha. oh and rhapsody in blue too, alright, now they're on my to-do-list heh.. alittle ambitious tho. well, anything is possible. really.
anw, as im stoning in frame one exercise, i realised something. well, i don't know if it's original, cos i made it up myself. 'love is like the stars, they shine at your darkest hours' true enough, it's often taken for granted.
anw, gonna be a long night again, stoning infront of the radio sets and phones. things to buy when i get back, rach 3 score!!! yea man, my current one have a missing page and it's abt to fall apart from all the flipping, well its a photocopy. anw shall try to get stuff here in australia, but cash is the prob! argh, wanna get a cap here, and actually a bag too.. crumpler's like cheaper here, and al other australian brands. wasted.
anw, im kinda afraid of uni now..
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
15 more days! gonna slack in air con room during the exercise, well not actually slack, but like playing with the radio and phones.. SIAN. well at least there's a teeny bit of reception outside the building there haha. well few more days few more days..can't wait!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
here i am in frame 2 of exercise wallaby! anw shall blog abt my frame one exercise. ok erm, its boring? and super eventful? haha many things happened, and the first major thing that happened was like on the morning of the second day of exercise?! ok don't think im allowed to blog it, cos infront of me now, there's this paper, which i think they just put up, saying "please be reminded that it is an offence to disclose any information, pertaining to training or incidents, onto public domains. etc etc.." haha. ok to round things up without saying much, i lost 300aussies, my 400bucks hp, a branded polo tee, levi's belt, my nice adidas shoes, and many many others..sigh. and so does 300 other ppl. hmm. anw the exercise still proceeds. you know the nights are so bloody cold, that when you sleep in the rover, you'll shiver so hard that the whole vehicle shakes? haha, and it's almost possible to keep still. anw, there are many shooting stars here!!! its like if each of them can grant me a wish, i can live happy after the first night! haha. oh oh and they sell a astronomer telescope here for only 60bucks, duno whether i should get it not haha.
anw, can't wait to return home, been here for bout 3 weeks plus now. and there's like 2 weeks plus more to go! argh. well at least the next exercise's gona be slacker.. cos we're like support signallers. i miss jap food, like alot alot.. i wanna like have nice buffet or something when i get back haha. ok shall stop here. more updates soon.
Friday, October 17, 2008
stars! lotsa em last night! like diamond dust in the sky! man, even saw a shooting star! made a wish! hahaha. its big and blue with no tail! damn nice.. it like mad my day! haha.. even saw a comet! its like a star moving, at first i thought it's an aeroplane, but it wasnt flashing, and its like getting dimmer and dimmer! damn cool.. saw many other stuff too, like kangaroos, emus, MOONRISE FROM BEHIND THE MOUNTAIN! haha. and best of all, NO FLIES!! BUT, swarms of mosquitoes in the early morning, sian, like when i wake up you can hear this symphony of buzzing ard, than you look up, the whole rover is like filled with mosquitoes la..sian. mountains were beautiful too! haha, nice place, except for the hot weather..
supposed to move out today to recce some place, but the rover disappeared, so here i am hahaha.. heck la. gonna stuff my field pack with mars bars, chips and drinks, cos the field rations really suck.. can like take this opportunity to lose weight haha..
exercise is coming!!! looking at the bright side, phase one is ending soon! yay, but still got phase 2.. sian. sigh, lost count of the days already, didnt really bother.. I WANNA GO HOME! had a nice dream on my first day of outfield, it was like, total blissfulness, wish you could see it too..
Monday, October 13, 2008
the 6th day!
God has been so good to me! haha. well in all the little ways, everyday passed is a blessing haha.
today is sooo hot! and they're like playing shrek 2 on the giant tv in the canteen. haha. today, stars are beautiful yesterday night! altho it's only for awhile before the clouds settled in, it's God sent! haha at least it made me smile for awhile, to know we're under the same sky..
waiting for instructions now, so decided to use the coms to keep in touch with the world, beyond this sandy, blood-sucking-fly-infested place haha. can't wait for the first phase to finish, so at least the next 3 weeks will be better.. anyone want anything from australia? haha theres a mall which don't sell much but at least i can try finding stuff during RnR. argh, sun's out again.. shall blog later, if there's time.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
end of the 5th day, 34 more days, sigh.. so many things happened when im in s'pore and away.. hope people back there are fine, man, the call rates back is like horrendously expensive with singtel. shall resolve to using phone cards and sms on hp, oh and emails=)
im getting fat, real fat, like for someone who never eat 3 meals a day and all, here is like 3 meals plus plus, chips, chocolate bars, crumbed chicken shintzels, kabanas, etc etc.. wth. at least the weather was fine, not too cold or hot. and crap, theres alot of ants!!! like under my field pack and all, co it like rained heavily a few days back and they like moved in temporary underneath it, bleah.. shouldn't had took the bed nearest the tent opening.
i hope the tortoise is fine=(
charged my phone! yay. anw, i wonder how everything's like back there, sigh, im like isolated in my own hill (samuel hill camp) with lotsa sand and flies, argh.. saw a squirrel! its like grey and bushy!, ahah so cute and i think i saw a kangaroo just now hopping in a distance..
missing home, you.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
cold
far away from home
and worried
sigh
36 more days!!!!!
sighhhhhhhhhh
i got a ex wallaby CAP! for free!!! k whateva.
anw, life here really suck, that i've nothing really much to write about. I WANT MY BOLSTER!!! k wth. went out in a rover today, tagged along some commander, and saw helicopters landing! wow. lol.
i miss home!=(
Friday, October 10, 2008
YES no flies at night. but got mosquitoes=(
anw, its round 2230 now, which is 2030 in s'pore. sigh. 37 days, i think i'll like get fat or something, cos didnt really do much here, not like what i had expected haha, all stores bleah, and i like get abnormally hungry here, lol, with a canteen selling "good food" = fat. haha
sigh, can't wait for December! clear all my offs and all. hopefully everything will settle by then? for now, shall try to persevere in this crazy weathered fly-infested area, till 15 nov! sianz. alright shall get off com now.. miss you ppl lots. ciaoz.
I HATE MARCH FLIES! THEY ARE EVERYWHERE HERE!!! AHHHH. and they bite and suck your blood! omg they are daylight vampires.
anw, 3rd day here at samuel hill camp haha. crap, flies are just flying around now as i type that i just can't keep still if not they'll just slice your flesh and it bloody hurts!!! argh..
sigh, miss home, miss my room, YOU especially, sighhh..
the weather is horrendous, it rained like yesterday night when we're like preparing stores and all, got superrr wet, and end up sleeping at bout 2am, bout 12am in s'pore. sian. no koalas, no kangaroos, JUST FLIES. they are like the dominant species here la..wth
alright, shall stop feeding em.. ciaoz!
Monday, October 6, 2008
Too fast, i don't know what im feeling now. bleah. i know, tired.
chicken chop! nicee=)
famous amos! prolly my last time eating here for now, macadamia choc chip!
sigh. i hope 6 weeks' fast.
Shostakovich! my love, Racmaninoff! Tchaikovsky! i think russian names sounds vulgar, but their music is like the sweetest haha. Chopin! Gershwin! weee.. sigh, printer no ink, if not i would had printed rhapsody in blue and spammed it on piano=) well, i think my neighbors are sick of rach3, at least i can play a third of the first mvt! wow.. the tip of the iceberg of one of the world's hardest and beautiful piece.
ps. go listen to shostakovich's festive overture! hear those gay horns and running notes on strings and winds. omg i wanna play it in band! altho kinda lost touch with my sax=(
uni science sounds so tough, if only i can be alittle more talented and get into yong siew toh with piano, or i should just, altho there's little prospect, pursue fine arts and design haha. well, shall do with what i'd chosen, don't wanna waste my alevel results on just mere interests, worked my ass off for As(pun intended), altho i know i'll just die there, bleah. sigh. nevermind, they're not important anw, all the worldly stuff. it may be a challenge, but only when i am weak, then i am strong. For when He's for me, nothing can be against me. I shall not do this for myself.
God, teach me...
Sunday, October 5, 2008
I can't wait for tmr! but yet, i hope it wasn't so near.
im getting... lazy! omg i don't think i'll survive uni once i get out of this mundane life of ns. especially when biochem sounds so.. and physics don't count!!! wth.
this life now. it feels, so aimless, yet i've no urge to do anything! sigh. it feels so dry.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
THURSDAY!!! AHHH!!!
God, help me sustain, open my heart, and teach me how to love like you, one that leads to eternity. Guard my heart, my eyes, my emotion, and my actions, for i yearn to be pure, in your eyes.
wow, nights out on a thursday, tho today didn't sync:( still, thank you God for letting me out everyday this week! I pray that the weekends, monday and tue would be spent meaningfully, even if it's simple.
i need to grow, spiritually, even tho i'd grown so much thru these events, more, more of you, less of me..
sigh. i want to live a satisfied life.. from now, but i don't know how, and where to start..
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
nice=)
thank you God. but it was so fast :(
fat!
tired!
satisfied!
sigh. ITS COMING. rarr.
i finally learnt how to play citadels. wow, for someone who rather sleeps than to play the "company game" heh.
today was impromptu, but fun, altho no movies and good timings. thanks anw.
anw, just thinking about it, many people just wanna see to believe, sigh. So saying that only seeing God makes one believe is like saying only if i can see air than i'll believe it exist. Or since i can't see your brain, therefore you don't have one. Sometimes, its more than seeing, its believing, and feeling, i can't see air, but i can feel it, how can i be sure? faith and trust, and He'll reassure you. Saying that only if i see Jesus and his nail marks on his hands and hole in his side, than i'll believe(like Thomas) is like saying only if i personally shake the hand of Alexander the Great than i'll believe he'd walked this world. Since Jesus is from one of the most reliable history books in the world, if you can believe all other historical people dating from BC, you can't deny his existance and the events which took place. Only a fool would deny such facts. sigh, people just want to see miracles before believing, when in fact, through believing, than we can see the miracles.
Love itself is not a feeling, but an action, whereby the greatest of it is sacrifice. It is the joy of giving till you feel the pinch, unconditional, willing, and child-like. There's no reason for it, not pity, sympathy, physical looks, nor anything else, it's a choice. Is this possible? Humanly, no, through God, the source of love itself, yes.
yada yada yada.. im tired. cant wait for tmr! or rather, later!
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