Tuesday, November 25, 2008
i don't know wads the hype with e nick.
prelude in G minor! ok i know im lagging, a piece i should had like learnt 2 years ago, when marc introduced it to me haha. Anw, last weekend, i figured i can't really call myself a pianist or even a musician, when i don't have a repertoire in my head on stand by. geez.
Anw it got me thinking, what the hell i wanna do in life? like seriously, life is too short to do everything you like, yet when you don't, it seems too long to live, with regrets, some things just can't wait, like youth, i need to decide, quick..
actually, i can't believe that im gonna enter CBC in ntu, actually, its already wrong right from the start in cjc, no, in sji, that simple mistake, of not taking up music as an elective, COS i thought they wouldn't accept me cos im self-taught and have no grades, argh, well but i did took art and aced it, than i chose CJC, and that's where it went wrong, my yr the school can't start a bloody art class due to lack of art students! i wasted 2 years mugging my guts out (don't know for what) in a screwed up class, or rather i screwed myself in it, enduring those who speak behind me, skipping all the outings(i think), living a life myself in my own world, for two years, and tried to patch it up with music, i joined band, got scolded all the time, i played the piano whenever i can, made many superficial friends tru it and ppl calling me weird, so what did i achieve after all that i'd done to myself? 3A's a B and a C, than wad? do i need those grades? bloody hell no, ADM min requirement is an olevel pass in maths, nafa music degree requires a dip in music from nafa, yong siew toh just wants a mozart.. soooo, in order not to waste my results and my 2 years away, i decided to follow what all other average singaporeans would do, enter the best course you could which have a prospect in the future with the results. EXCUSES. wad a fool. i won't make it tru the 4 years, if im gonna study like how i did, for the sake of it..
after saying so much crap, i just found out my off is ending soon, and im gonna return to camp next mon, come to think about it, what had i done during this long break ever since i returned from australia? NOTHING, well actually not, watching lotsa dramas and movies, feeding myself, irritate my neighbors, geez my new year resolution's gonna be long.
omg i should go slp
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