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Sunday, December 28, 2008

Yay done my new blog. almost done. decided to use my old one, www.sesquipedalophobic.blogspot.com haha. sounds nicer. sigh, booking in again tonight, and lotsa armskote stuff to clarify and get done. hope i won't kena anything. shall hope my fever will go down and stay down, and my throat will be better. don't wanna enter the new year in bed haha. well this MAY be the last post here. ciaoz.

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Saturday, December 27, 2008

back from the city of phnom penh! and down with a fever. great, before and after the trip. maybe this explains my lethargic-ness during the trip.

4 more days!!!

I was thinking, if im gonna be single forever, how am i gonna live my life? hmm.. well, there's many obstacles in a relationship, but in singlehood, there's only one very big one, lonliness. scary aye? Well so if im in that situation, i think i'll try to make alot of money, travel the world, with my parents, perhaps become a pastor, get a degree in biblical studies or something, and try to die happy, no, satisfied. haha. ok that's some random thought.

I hate casinos, really, i see no point in gambling. It's just a place to unleash ppl's greed. IF i ever have children, they better watch out. heh.

you know what, i miss writing essays. Expository, argumentative.. hmm, this is giving me ideas.

This year i looked back, and asked myself, any regrets, any satisfaction? i thought to myself, no regrets, cos there's no point, i've to be responsible for my own actions; no satisfaction either. Cos im just not doing anything, or rather, i can't.. so this means i got some work to do next year. how? eh i duno.

shall try to revamp my blog soon. haha. have a new start or something.

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10:44 PM

here i am stoning and doing quizes on fb while waiting time to pass before keaving for the airport.

actually, i cant wait to get back to singapore, but again, i dun wanna get back to that monotonous life. man this sucks haha. sian, still have guard duty on the 9th. well.

crap internet time running out. nothing to blog anw.

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Friday, December 26, 2008

gonna be screwed when i get back.. so much shit back there..

omg the year is ending. i wanna just zoom past next year too. but hopefully christmas' not like this the next time haha.

God, i feel like the distance between me and the world, its getting bigger, and between us too. i think im starting to live a world on my own.. wanna get out of this, hopefully next year is a better one.

i need another phone!!! mine dropped into the toilet bowl so i lost like all the contacts saved in my phone.. sigh. well luckily there's a spare non-camera one at home.

over here, just give them a tip of 1 us dollar and they'll treat you like a prince hahaha..

ok randomness. i really miss my piano. my bolster. my guitar. my piano. my bolster.. eh.

as you can see im really really bored. and the internet is not free wth.

well actually come to think abt it, even if im at home now, i'll be staying at home playing piano and stoning infront of the com haha.

omg i haven't shop for shoes and clothes yet and the year is ending. and there's like nothing here, well there is actually, their "latest fashion". oh did i mention they have a not so Paragon "Paragon"? haha.

sigh, i feel sucky.

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5:26 PM

a cup of vodka, 2 cups of baileys irish cream.. haha. no not tipsy, just sneeze alot.

some cool filipino band at the hotel's lounge which performs any piece requested haha. could like sit there and drink forever. man there's really nothing here, even on christmas day. had japanese lunch, and its like super filling. haha. sigh. don't know what we gonna do tmr.

anw, red wine!

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Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Greetings from Cambodia! haha. Ok ok like staying at some high class
hotel with some damn cool bathtub, and the people always open the door
for you when you get off the car lol. Anw there's hell lot of
motorcycles here. Even girls younger than me rides em. Well I notice
one thing here, even though the people are so much poorer than anyone
in Singapore, but their happiness index is so much higher! Oh and I'm
right they don't celebrate christmas.

Frankly speaking it's kinda boring here.

Man gonna be back in Singapore on the 27th night. I'm missing so much
that's happening back there.

Honestly I can't stop thinking... God I'd put my trust in you already, what are you gonna do now? When true love waits. Haha, perhaps I need
that book more than you do.

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Monday, December 22, 2008

As im on my way home today, i was thinking to myself and i realised, happiness, it's not determined by what had happened in the past, but by the faith that believes it will come. Some may say, that's happiness itself. People get it wrong most of the time, happiness is an instantaneous thing, not something we can look back and compare with, that should be called satisfaction.

Finally bought my reeds yesterday, shall try em out later. Wanted to buy the Grand Concert brand, which sounds great on clarinets, but not sure on sax. however they don't sell individually, and the box is too ex, well next time. Need to fast a meal a day, today is the first day, hopefully this will change things.

God, this year is short, that's what i feel, time passed quickly, or rather, so much had happened, that in a blink of an eye, the next christmas is coming. What had i done, for you? You had done so much for me, in fact every step of the day, from the beginning of the year, to enlistment, to my postings, you planned it all, well. anw, i feel like eating chocolate.

im leaving, on a jetplane.. tmr. To a place which probably doesn't celebrate christmas. Well that's because they don't know the meaning of it. Here, everyone "celebrates" it, for what? Discounts, presents, party, food, getting drunk, eh.. so this is what Jesus is born into the world for, for santa clause to fly around, for shops to advertise, for us to go "yay no school!" well the next thing you know Jesus's death is all about bunnies and eggs. that's sad.

cant believe i almost got caught red-eyed..

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6:40 PM